::Page-Turner: A very interesting, exciting, or suspenseful book, usually a novel.
The author of our adoption journey is writing quite a page-turner these days. With every sentence, he is revealing more of himself and reminding us that he, in fact, is the author of our story.
Just when a situation appears hopeless, he turns the page revealing a completely new and exciting chapter. When circumstances appear stale and stagnant, he writes in a twist that you never expected. When the crisis feels unbearable, he introduces the supporting staff of family and friends and when the future looks tragic, he introduces himself as the hero…the ever-constant, faithful One you knew would rescue you all along.
These past two weeks, God has been busy writing this page-turner. We have had two adoption opportunities that have sprung up for Stuart and I. The decision before us was whether or not we wanted our profile presented to two birth mothers. We spent countless hours praying, talking, seeking wise counsel, etc. We have decided in both situations not to move forward. This has been hard on us and yet we know that God is clearly saying “no” to these specific situations. It’s extremely difficult to say “no” to what appears to be a great opportunity in the present. But God is writing the story, not me. He knows the end. I know only what I’ve read so far.
I’m not going to lie. These past two weeks for me have been hard and filled with several hopeless moments. But God has reminded me that he is turning the pages of our story and I need only to keep reading. As I do, another chapter reveals that he is far more faithful than I realized. With every disappointment this past week, God has brought alongside a blessing, an encouraging text, a good friend and I’m reminded we are not alone. He doesn’t want me to dwell on what was or what may appear to be a missed opportunity. He is moving me/us on to the next chapter, so I don’t need to keep reading the previous chapter over and over again.
Like any great writer, God’s story of our adoptions has a fascinating plot filled with high and lows, conflict and resolution, protagonist and antagonist, the moments you want to give up and the moments you think life can’t get any better.
God is writing some story in these days and our role is to keep on reading and trust that his conclusion will be for our good and his glory. I love that God put this on my heart today because we are in the thick of it. We are hours removed from saying “no” to situation #2 and yet I KNOW with full assurance that as today’s chapter ends, tomorrows will hold a new theme. A new start. A new opportunity to trust the author and perfecter of our faith!
Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:1-2